declaration (rant)
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I might as well be
controlled by a machine
seem to kill the plants
just as they start blooming
the sense of needing
reconsidering
some things
but at least I can keep up
with my daily recommended flossing
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why do I manifest this way
when all I wanna do is play
but you see I sold my soul
to go to school with Sallie Mae
and it will be a ways
until I can see the day
that I can make it rain
for capitalism is our domain
and I feel some pain
over the illusions of that plane
working hard everyday
to make my values and morals oral
getting parole from my inner hell hole
even though I worble
along the cliffs of the abyss
trying to coat my miseries with some bliss
and get over what I missed
couldn't kiss
got blitzed
threw a fit
tried to knit
took a slip
and also did my best to skip
away today
to play
and say my Truth
and then hope that it's something
that I can fully connect to
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Are you feeling blue?
Sometimes, I do, too
but I'd rather moo with the masses
than constantly have my ass kicked
by the entertainment news media
reminding me that freedom depends on certain criteria
and, uh
also by my PRIVILEGES
since I can just sit here and witness it
from the throne
of my rented crib
and feel glib
and rib
on the ridiculousness of our reality
so I'll do my best to keep on smiling
defiling
what I can
in the name of fighting the man
who I ran
away from
cuz he was a bum
with an infinite sum
cash flow
and you know
that that's why his evil ass ain't in jail
making bail
without trying
and getting away with lying
while frying
the underbelly of society
with propriety
and not a single gram of piety
Did you lie to me?
That's okay
It's no surprise
I'll take your lies with a side of fries
and surmise
it will happen again
and then
the pattern emerges
between the savings and the splurges
and every wasted purchase
that still felt right in the moment
Can you own it?
If not, take it back
or give it away
don't be a slave
even if you do or don't like it
know your reasons
open to the changes of your seasons
and for the love of being
quit slinking
away from your glory
own it all
with the quarries
and shadows
cuz they'll shift as the day goes on to night
taking flight
into the unknown
Is it overblown to be so efficiently in style?
Let's walk that mile
while we contemplate what feels great
and what doesn't fit just so we can get
further on the path
praying we won't get murdered
for using our craft
to point out what another person
can't or won't see
tho' it appears to me
to be
real
or perhaps it's all
FAKE
and I should just deal
and contain the fire of my wordy squeals
So what's the appeal?
I took a breath
of the Atmosphere that I hold dear
reconfigured my gears
to get ahold of some ears
despite my fears
and make it clear
that I'm HERE
arrived and alive
and also ready to jive
my name is Ellie O
and I can be sweet like a jelly dough
nut
but
cut
your assumptions in half
shatter the glass
of your perceptions
and
give birth to new conceptions
with
and/or
without rejection
and also serve
as yet another embodied reflection
How things have changed
reconfigurating my brain
I know I'm not the same
anymore
blew the doors
off my consciousness
I take a breath and ponder this
shift in riffs from my experience
I didn't ask for it
it simply happened
I spent some time inside
to find I spit rhymes
like chimes from my soul
it's anything but droll
my lexicon is equipped
between my fingers and my lips
I found a voice in my pen and inspiration again
after years of tears in the dark without a light
till I decided to fight
and use my semantic might as a
given birthright
I said I don't care what you think
as long as you know I'm distinct
I was born to enhance
so now I'm taking the chance
to debate and create and dance some rants under a moniker
and be sure my sounds are coming through your monitors
not clinging to a persona
I'm gonna be me because I wanna
erudite
I can bite
and I delight
in the practice
of this transformed stage fright
and stay off the blacklist
tho' encumbered and outnumbered by others' projections
and still unsure if I can trust my own reflections
I'll mention
I'm human
and I'm doing
erstwhile
my thoughts are brewing
while I'm chewing
my relationships to
objects
in the
process
of
increasing my awareness
moving forward with fairness
so as not to embarrass
my own shadows of greed
I'll cut away from this group and take only what I need
feeding on what bleeds
so it won't go to waste
deciding how to unfold and move with the pace
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Is it a race?
I haven't decided
no direction
and unsure if I can comply with it
rules don't mean nothing unless you're caught
even then only some are fraught
with shame
and innocents are punished over misplaced blame
not to mention the game
of the dollar
determining the name
and the colour of your work shirt's collar
so holler
if you can relate
and hate or don't hate
on the structure of this slate
I create
to stand on like a soap box of plastic crates
and deface
some injustice of the state
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no one is shocked about this
and I'm sure you haven't missed
how it went down this way
you see, this is how the wordsmiths play
when they have something to say
so thank you very much
for your attention today
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Winter 2014
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